Today marks our first major war.

I am shock that this thing is happening to us. I am afraid that things might not be the same agaid. I am terified that there will be a big gap between us and it will be the start of bigger misunderstanding.

Haay.

Life.

I will not go into details. But yeah, maybe it was my mistake. I was so disappointed about his reactions and response to the topic I gave to him. I got mad. But all I wanted was to feel that I was worth the fight. But no, I was wrong. I am always wrong.

I always expect that he will make suyo and lambing. Really, expectation is directly proportion to disappointment.


I wanted to say sorry to him. That I don't want this relationship to end like this. I want to say sorry that I did not mean words that I say but my ego says no. I always want to be chased. :(

To you,

I will always love you. Please, remove in your mind those thinking that I dont have any plans to push and make this relationship work. I am very blessed that God gave you to me. I hope you know how much I am willing to do anything just for you. I always pray to God that you and I will end up together. 



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